mcj metroid Posted February 12, 2008 Posted February 12, 2008 i created a thread about depression before. I have never felt so bad. I actually just want to die but i will never do the suicide cause i'm too much of a chicken shit. I'm never happy,i've lost interest in everything I once loved.I thought i'd never come back here. I don't know what to do. i'm sorry for these threads and it's fucking sad to say i have nowhere else to turn i know..but i'm fucking trying. I'm not sure if it's the best idea to create a thread here.. My best friends are sick of me. I really can't take much more pain. i'm not looking for sympathy I just need to get it out there if you get what i mean. Please believe me when I say i'm not an attension seeking prick.
Daft Posted February 12, 2008 Posted February 12, 2008 What I did was wallow in my depression until I got sick of myself...might not work for everyone... Just try and concentrate on the positives in your life. There must be something good? If you need to talk on MSN just shoot me a PM! Just remember you aren't the only person who's felt like being born was the worst thing that had ever happened to them.
Sheikah Posted February 12, 2008 Posted February 12, 2008 You need some comedy...watch this and you will be guaranteed to be cheered up somewhat for a while at least.
Emasher Posted February 12, 2008 Posted February 12, 2008 Play Mario Galaxy, and watch some funny Youtube videos.
Daft Posted February 12, 2008 Posted February 12, 2008 Go and see a doctor, seriously. Actually rokhed is right. I was never good at expressing myself so I kept it to myself, which isn't a good idea.
Guest Jordan Posted February 12, 2008 Posted February 12, 2008 mcj, dude. As cliché and stupid as this sounds, you're in a phase of your life where its tough. I gotta say, I used to be the same. I used to think i'd never amount to anything, that i was useless, stupid, annoying, ugly and so on. So, I changed myself. I changed my diet, resulting in me dropping several stone in the last few years. I became more confident, meaning i mean Letty, i went to Shetland and now i live here. I used to hate myself when i looked in the mirror and now i actually like the person i'm becoming. Trust me, being a teenager is tough, but you'll pull through. Stay positive.
Sheikah Posted February 12, 2008 Posted February 12, 2008 On another unrelated note, your birthday is the same as mine Jordan. Any birthday topic of mine would be overshadowed. :p
Ramar Posted February 12, 2008 Posted February 12, 2008 Go and see a doctor, seriously. What he said. Still technically a he.. right?
Guest bluey Posted February 12, 2008 Posted February 12, 2008 absolutely with jordan on that one ~ you're 19, right? things get better. i've had some pretty wanky things happen to me in the past, and around the time i was about 19 (coincidentally) it all just got too much for me and i started to go downhill emotionally... but i was able to confide in a good friend who suggested i go to a doctor or college councilor - which i did - and after a couple of months of just talking AT this poor guy i felt much better. i could get my thoughts and feelings all out to this person and not feel guilty about wasting their time with my whining 'cause they get paid to sit and hand me tissues and make me tea. win-win. if you can get yourself to a councilor like that, do so. reeeally helped me. a lot. *nod*
Ashley Posted February 12, 2008 Posted February 12, 2008 Its a real shame to hear that mcj, you always come off as a good positive person. I dunno what to suggest (or at least, what to add to the above). I can't say I've ever been that down. I've had points, but its passing in my case. Just try and keep your chin up eh? Try and believe in karma, and that something good will come around. (and not that it is at all relevant but I though you were from the midlands, not ireland? am I getting muddled again?)
weeyellowbloke Posted February 12, 2008 Posted February 12, 2008 Oh man. Dude you don't sound good at all, sounds like you've totally given up. Definately take up rokhed's advice and see a doctor, and if offered it maybe try and seek some professional counselling. There is help out there if you look for it and although it may seem like your friends have given up on you I'm sure it isn't true, not if they're truely friends. I'm not sure what else to say really. Try and find something, anything, you feel positive about and focus on it. Even if it's just a small thing. Wish there was more I could do. Just don't throw in the towel alright.
mcj metroid Posted February 12, 2008 Author Posted February 12, 2008 thanks guys for the advice.. It looks like i'll jut have to get help when it comes to it.
tapedeck Posted February 12, 2008 Posted February 12, 2008 Mc, you're a good person and I enjoy your posts, you've even "unwittingly" pushed me onto games like Phoenix Wright and Trauma Center on the DS with a post back in June 07..Maaaan, whatta long time ago! Life is shite sometimes but what doesn't kill you only makes you stronger. You will learn lessons from pain and in the end YOU will be the stronger person. Think of it like a Rocky film...You get the shit beat out of you and you're in pain. But the mind heals in time and you're the one who can take the punches round after round in the ring that is life. Yeah, Rocky rules f'sure but so do you my friend. Hang in there. Find an outlet (Stallone lifted things and chased Chickens)...Healing your mind is in the details. Oh, sorry about the Rocky thing...I meant Rambo :p http://www.metanoia.org/suicide/ I like how the site is all rainbows and flowers to soften the mood. Good site actually. Even if it made my guts feel lik they were commiting suicide.
The fish Posted February 13, 2008 Posted February 13, 2008 Add Coolness Bears on MSN, he's made of molten happy! He'll cheer you up regardless of how shite things look! Or, of course, add meeeeeeeeeeeee.
fex Posted February 13, 2008 Posted February 13, 2008 (edited) Get your self a hobby and immerse your self in it. Design/Photography/Typography turns me on. Just find something that gets your juices flowing and go with it. Just think of your self as The Boss, your a fuckin bad man. Next time your walking down a street put your head up high and think I own this joint. Walk with confidence and don't give a shit about nobody else for a while. Just get it in to your head that your number one. Speak out with confidence and dont be afraid about fuckin' up your words or your opinion, just believe in the shit you say. Its about building up a strong mind. You've got to want change and if you do you will change you will become a more confident person. So next time your walking grab your mp3 player and get loads of songs that make you feel like the man. James Brown : The Boss ________ CHEAP AIRSOFT HOLSTERS Edited April 28, 2011 by fex
Chris the great Posted February 13, 2008 Posted February 13, 2008 dude, ive done a little bit of work ob depression for uni, i could offer some help, i cant say it'l be great, certainly nothing on a dr, but i can at least offer some support, with an understanding of deppression, both scholisticaly and personaly. i can also give you a few avenues to look up. i appreciate how hard it is to addmit depression, i admire you for it. my msn isnt working, but im good to e-mail. [email protected] regardless of you contacting me, contact your GP, dont let things well up
Fierce_LiNk Posted February 13, 2008 Posted February 13, 2008 Sorry to hear that things ain't going well for you, man. Rokhed's advice is pretty sound. If it is pushing you towards suicide, you need to get help. Seriously, it'll do you the world of good. Other than that, take a break, give yourself some "me" time where you just concentrate on looking after yourself. This actually helps me out a lot, sometimes.
Hellfire Posted February 13, 2008 Posted February 13, 2008 I've been through that, sometimes I still have my doubts, but it's true, things do get better. Life is filled with good moments and bad moments, but living through the bad moments and winning will make you stronger. RIght now it might seem impossible to win, but give it time. Find joy in the littlest of things, let yourself cry, take time for yourself, you're young, the world can wait. So many wonderful things are ahead of you, ahead of everyone, it's worth to fight to live them. Get help in the ways you feel comfortable with and more importantly, don't let it bottle up. Speak up. To us, to friends, family, a therapist, it doesn't matter.
gaggle64 Posted February 13, 2008 Posted February 13, 2008 What do you expect us to do/say. Just to listen. I've often found what a person needs is just a sympathetic ear to get some of the excess off their chest.
Vicar Posted February 13, 2008 Posted February 13, 2008 Dude I barely know you but don´t think about suicide thats the worst thing you could do to you and your family, my uncle did the suicide way out and left every one feeling bad over not helping him or being there for him, he got into a car accident and his back somehow got fucked up and he where in pain 24/7 after it . I think its good that you are telling us that you are feeling down and having bad days, if you where building it inside you just could snap and do something stupid and nobody wants to see you do that . here is my advice just go out out and do something you like, buy new clothes, rent a movie or anything. If you don´t like going out the start a simple hobby like papercrafting A.K.A making stuff out of paper I can start a thread to teach you guys how to do it I´m colorblind and have shakinghands (I have no idea what to call it in English) so I beat you can do it. You also told us that you friends god sick of you what do you mean..... they think your boring or something ? thats not the point you must have a friend thats there for you because friends are always there for you just look how every one is reacting to your post like I said I barely know you but I feel for you I hope you read this because every time I feel down I tire to make the best of it. If my English is bad thats because I just got home from 9 hours of work and my head is not working like on a normal day.
jayseven Posted February 13, 2008 Posted February 13, 2008 i created a thread about depression before. I have never felt so bad. I actually just want to die but i will never do the suicide cause i'm too much of a chicken shit. I'm never happy,i've lost interest in everything I once loved.I thought i'd never come back here. I don't know what to do. i'm sorry for these threads and it's fucking sad to say i have nowhere else to turn i know..but i'm fucking trying. I'm not sure if it's the best idea to create a thread here.. My best friends are sick of me. I really can't take much more pain. i'm not looking for sympathy I just need to get it out there if you get what i mean. Please believe me when I say i'm not an attension seeking prick. Dude, surely this is what having a forum community is all about? You have nothing to feel sorry for As odd as it sounds, it's nice to know that others go through this. Go and see a doctor, seriously. Quoted for truth. http://www.metanoia.org/suicide/ Great site, too. I've talked to the Samaritans a couple of times. They won't try talking you out of anything but they'll listen and they'll listen good. My experience with a counsellor at uni wasn't tooo great. I felt better making the appointment though :P
MoogleViper Posted February 13, 2008 Posted February 13, 2008 You just need to find something that you enjoy and makes you feel better. For me it was riding my moped. No matter how blue my face and hands turned I still enjoyed it. But then I had to go and fuck it all up by totalling my ped. Still I might get a pit bike or something to mess aorund on. Just try new things. You won't want to and you'll probably have to force yourself (that's what I have to do) but when you find that one thing you will feel better in other aspects of your life.
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