Sorry to hear that, Blade. I can't imagine what you're going through...we're here for you, just like Mr-Paul said.
I can't add much more, as everything has been said.
But I want to say this, and it may sound a bit harsh and not something you'd like to hear: Those mutual friends? You're better off without them...if they don't even want to hear your side.
It's easier said than done, I know...