mokong, that's awful, I'm sorry to hear that.
I seem to be having a panic attack but i'm not stressed or panic-y. I can only describe it as feeling like a big huge fuck off siren is going off in my head. Like a fire drill when you know there's nothing to be worried about but you're body goes into fight or flight mode? Fuck me its properly weird though... o____O
Think its time to get my doc to lower my anti depressant meds....
And I'm pining after muh new male interest. He's only moved and thus has no phone line, so no internet, and his phone had been playing up for ages, decides to give up on him. So after an incredible first date and finding out we both are really attracted to each other, we've now got no contact. I R sads.