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...I don't have a flat yet. Will be crashing at a mate's for at least one or two weeks and in this time I have to study a lot and look for a nice, cheap flat. Let's see how it'll turn out.

My girlfriend and I spent some hours together this evening. After she'd kissed me goodbye, she smiled and said: "We'll make this work. We can do this." That made me very happy

Seen it yesterday. Liked it Javier Bardem could've been a pretty good Joker, I think. Can't wait to see the movie in English.

Happy Birthday

Good day. :p

Sometimes I become a bit frustrated that I still haven't figured out who I want to be/who I am. But hell, I'm young. There's plenty of time You're right. I think we have to talk about the situation, otherwise it will slowly come to a painful end.

That's true, but I didn't just do it for her/us. I realized that I was a pretty bad person (wow, that sounds weird) and I needed to change. Not for her sake, not for the relationship's sake. I have always been a serious person, someone who rarely laughed, didn't (want to) have a lot of fun. Now I found out that fun is actually pretty great That's why I changed, and it helped with the relationship as well. The thing is, I don't really know what "the real me" is. Sounds like a line straight out of a movie, but it's true. In the past few weeks I've come closer to finding out, I guess. Maybe. She still tells me that she wants to spend time with me, though. But I guess actions speak louder than words.

Reading my post again, she kinda does. But it actually isn't as nightmarish at is sounds. We've been through times like this. A year ago I had a lot to do at work, learning all the time, having exams and all that. She had the problem, too. But we still found time on weekends. Now it's different. I really don't know why. The last two weeks I've been happy, and she told me she has been happy as well. We had lots of fun, we felt great when we were together. And now that I'm getting closer to moving away for work, everything changes. It's sad that I think it's her fault. That she might give up on us. Again, it sounds really selfish to only find the mistake with her, but right now I can't find anything I did wrong. Whenever I bring that topic up, she tells me that I misjudge her and our situation. Everything is fine for her. Maybe I should try dating a cat.

Something is going seriously wrong. I only have 4 days left until I move away again for work and then I won't have a single hour of free time for a couple of weeks because I need to study a lot. My girlfriend knows that which is why I thought we would spend at least one or two days together before I leave. But she has different plans. Tonight she's going out with friends (I'm not allowed to come), tomorrow she has to work (that's fine), on Saturday she's also away with friends (again, I'm not allowed to join) and on Sunday I have to leave early. I've changed so much after she broke up with me, after she gave me a second chance. I feel like I'm a new person, and it feels good. I'm much more comfortable with the person I am now than with the way I have been before. And I changed because of her, because I didn't want to lose her again. Now it seems that even that isn't enough. It may sound selfish but after everything I did I kind of wish that she gives me something in return. A sign that she wants to keep this relationship alive, even though it's a difficult time. Maybe I want to much...maybe I can't give enough...maybe I'm just not a relationship-guy. Don't know. I'm sad

Any ideas for a cheap last-minute costume?

Here I thought the relationship with my girlfriend was going uphill again... My mother constantly asks me whether I'm sure that everything will work out fine and she is pretty unfriendly to my girlfriend. She only greets her with a simple "hi" in a tone that sounds annoyed. My girlfriend's family has always been kinda strange to me. Especially her mother who's been against me from the beginning. And now that she knows we're getting back together it's even worse. And yesterday I found out that I'm not welcome at my girlfriend's uncle and aunt's anymore. Apparently because I've treated my girlfriend badly and didn't talk to anybody from her family. Yay.

Say what, now? Really? Have to check, if it's available in Germany, too. Would be awesome! It would be even more awesome if I could buy games from the UK store with PayPal.

I fucking passed. I'm the king of the world. Now I'll get drunk.

Will get my results in 2 hours...don't know whether I should post this in the good or bad stuff thread. I'm freaking nervous. It could go either way.

Congrats, Ganepark Did my second exam just now. It was waaaayy better than yesterday. Don't think there was a lot wrong On Thursday I'll have my last exam, which won't be much of a problem. So, let's hope the examiners will be merciful when they discuss the examination from yesterday, which was pretty bad at the end...

Well, did my first exam. Wasn't too good, to be honest. The first 55 minutes were not really great but also not bad. And in the last few seconds I noticed a mistake I made which might be a big problem, but there was no time to fix it. Two more to go...I hope I can compensate the first exam. Fingers crossed.

Next week is an important week. Monday, Tuesday and Thursday. One hour each day. Three exams. If I pass, one of the milestones in my Air Traffic Control career will be reached. I feel confident, I feel good, and I feel fucking great Go me!

Here we go! Fascinating stuff.

Sooooo, yesterday I met up with the lady. It was a bit awkward at first. She told me beforehand that this would not be the start of a new relationship, and I accepted that. We talked about the day, the last few weeks...typical small talk. Nothing special. Then we watched a movie, during which I often have been lost in thoughts. At the end of the movie she noticed and asked me to tell her what was on my mind. I did. I told her that I wanted to kiss her, hold her. Then she started thinking, we looked at each other, but didn't talk. A few minutes later she kissed me. We decided that this still isn't the start of a relationship, but it is a start of something new. Well, my personal life seems to take a turn into the right direction again. Now I have to take this chance and show this woman that she is the most important person of my life.

My ex(or whatever)-girlfriend wants to meet me next Saturday. And she said that she's looking forward to it. On that day, it would have been our second anniversary.. I told her we could go on a walk through a pretty sweet park and later go to the cinema to watch a terrible movie (don't know which one, yet). She agreed. It's a start.

Well, pretty cool.

Barney would be proud. ell, I'm drunk. Sweet. Haven't been drunk for 6 months now. Feels pretty good, wh9ch is a bad thing, I guess..

For myself: For the woman I try to win back soon: And those earrings in orange (she always wanted them), but there's no picture anymore, now that I've ordered them By @Eenuh

Today's Friday. For the last 1 1/2 years, every Friday has been a good day. Driving back home, to my mum, to my girlfriend. Now it sucks. I'm still going to see my mother, of course, but the other most important woman of my life doesn't want to see me. It's been only 6 days, but I thought I'd handle the situation better by now.