drahkon

Your avatar's coat has more similarities :p

Thank you My hair actually looks a bit different now (as long as I style them :p). This picture is more than a year old.

Since I've shared quite personal information and gotten a lot of help from the forum, I thought: Let me give them a picture of zat German guy

"I'm an Air Traffic Controller. Pretty stressful job but gives me a lot of freetime for my hobbies like reading, and listening to music. So what do you like doing in your freetime?" "You know, making music, listening to music, do sports..." This girl's amazing go on - Quoted from Own Brain "...watching movies with my boyfriend." "Cya!" This is how I imagine conversations will end in the future for me

You should walk alongside me for a couple of days and just punch me in the face whenever I feel sorry for myself. Thank you, for your words. Again. I need this, I need to read something like this, something that tells me, other people have experienced the same and overcome it. I know there a shitload of those people, but still...it helps.

Happy Birthday

Hm. Hate it when memories get the better of me and throw me into misery. My brain tells me not to chase after the girl, my heart tells me not to stop fighting. What I - or rather my brain and my heart - need to understand is that I might - probably even shouldn't - fight for her, but only after I've stopped chasing her and figured out who I am. Patience is a virtue. And I hate my brain/my heart. I must sound like a sad sad person.

Happy Birthday Eenuh Have a wonderful day, and continue to be the amazing artist you are

Actually, I've been searching for something similar after posting. I'm considering to go to someone who offers help near my hometown.

Good to hear it's nothing bad @Daft This is the good stuff thread, so maybe...kinda..this?

Well, I don't have the time nor the money to get professional help (it's complicated in Germany when it comes to money in medical issues). What I will do is, I will focus on my job, focus on achieving a couple of goals in life (visit New York, write a short story, learn to play the guitar) and as I've posted in the 'bad stuff thread' just now, let time mend my heart. I know you might say that I definitely should get professional help, but right now all I want to do is focus on myself without anyone meddling with my life (not saying I won't seek further help and advice from friends and people in this forum). As I've said, my determination hasn't reached 100%, but I think I'm on a good way, even though it hasn't even been two days since the break-up. Edit: I keep forgetting: Thank you all for you help. It's been sometime that I've been able to talk about all the things that happened in my life. Someday I'll be able to really talk about that with someone close to me instead of this forum. You guys are great.

This is what pisses me off most about myself. I keep ranting about how shitty everything is (especially right now) but I don't try to change it. But I am determined to do exactly that. Let time mend my heart and in the meantime I'll be mending my life and myself. Wish I could say that right now with 100% determination but hey...it's better than nothing, right?

Of course it would. I understand why she broke up. I did try. But there is actually nothing them and me have in commnon. And I just can't pretend to like stuff they like. It's not the only reason. I think I've said it before, but my father died in 2009. I've never really dealt with it, still haven't. I think this is kind of a reason why I feel down so often. My ex always tried to pick me up, but I wouldn't let her. I would just annoy her, be mad at her for no reason...it destroyed her and she can't put up with it anylonger. Someday I will think the same. It's gonna take a lot of time though as I have been madly in love with her...still am.

I hear ya, @Daft Burst into tears this morning...didn't really help with my situation. Still feel sick. Probably won't be able to work on Thursday and Friday.

It is. I've never eally taken interest in her life and friends. That's what I do with pretty much everyone. I often don't care about what they do. Don't think anyone can just accept that. I realized a couple of months ago that I needed to change. I have to take interest in people's lives. Maybe it's the that, jay was takling about: I know it wouldn't be a good idea...but..it's just so difficult to accept. Edit: Don't know what do do. I have a couple of days off so no distraction at work. My friends are busy studying. Everything I think about is what I shouldn't be thinking about.

The thing is, my ex didn't do anything wrong. It was all me, and in the end she still gave herself most of the blame. She said she believes she wasn't strong enough to help me. The first 6 months of our relationship have been great. We were happy, we could rule the world. But then I did all the things that ended our relationship in the end. Now I have to figure out why I did that and how I can change. I've tried to change a couple of months ago, when she gave me a second chance. I couldn't make it work. And as jay said, I probably have to work that out before I should ever do something in the love-department again. What if she doesn't want me to talk to her? I won't be able to find out where I stand.. Edit: For got to thank you guys for your support. So here goes: Thank you

Thank you. I understand everything you say, and I truly believe you. The problem is that I'm hopelessy pessimistic right now, one hour after the break-up. That's all I want to do. I'm just afraid of the time until then.

I think so. Maybe I should work on that, but right now all I can think about is that I lost the love of my life. The prospect of time healing all wounds doesn't comfort me.

There's something not right with me. My girlfriend broke up with me..again..and this time for good. The same reasons as before...I couldn't change permenantly. It went so well after we tried it again, but I screwed it up..for the second time. I don't know what to say, what to think, what to do. Don't know whether I should just try to erase her from my mind and let time do its thing or fight for her. I just don't know...

Still not feeling better...will see a doctor later today.

Best thread ever. @Eenuh You do remember that I still want to have an Eenuh original hanging in my future house? Don't waste your inspiration for that on this thread :p

Just in front of my house a construction site is making a shit load of noise. Woke up because of it, which doesn't help me getting better as I suffer from a nasty cold. The upside is that I can play Ni No Kuni now. And since my soundsystem is quite good I counter the noise coming from outside 11 hours in, I now can tame familiars. Aaaaand here comes backtracking. Can't wate to tame all the monsters I came by so far Edit: And thank god I traded merit cards for the jumping ability...I just keep jumping around. Useless, but amazing

Reached Al Mamoon just now. Won't go to the 'story star' (that's what I call it ) right away. Bought a sword and a shield for Mitey and will level up and acquire some gold for a few minutes. This game has the potential to become something very special to me. It's the first game since Final Fantasy IX (my first real RPG) that reminds me of why video gaming is my biggest hobby. When I've played FFIX in 2001, right on the release day, it was amazing. I was 11 years old and didn't really know/understand what an RPG is. But whenever I played the game it was just pure fun. The atmosphere it created with its personality...never since then has a game achieved something quite like this. While playing Ni No Kuni I feel the same way I felt when I was 11. I really feel like a child again, enjoying a video game with the innocence of a child's heart. Sounds stupid, but maybe some of you guys know what I mean. Thank you Level 5 and Studio Ghibli. Edit: Just received a page for the Wizard's Companion by solving the 'riddle' form Horace in Al Mamoon. He asked me a question about a story he gave me and along comes the beauty of the Wizard's Edition of Ni No Kuni: Grabbed the companion, read the story and boom, answered the question. Having the hard copy of the book makes you a 'real' part of the game. It's a little detail, which can only be enjoyed by owners of the special edition, but it's something I will cherish/all should cherish throughout the whole game. And I can see how this - of course in a smaller scale - applies to the ingame Wizard's Companion, too. To leaf through the book, no matter if it's 'real' or 'virtual', in order to progress through the game...This is immersion. The more I play Ni No Kuni, the more I love it.

Thanks I've asked a mate, too, who's been playing guitar forever and he also recommended me a Yamaha guitar. So I'll probably buy one