It's really tricky. I have a myriad of issues, both self-esteem based and social
I was recently made aware that I never actually look at people when conversing, never maintain eye contact and so forth.
At social gatherings, I always worry about what to say, what to do with my hands. I'm always incredibly quiet and never really speak unless spoken to beforehand.
I used to be huge, and when I lost the weight, I lost it so rapidly it has messed with my mental view of myself.
Even with friends I have known for years, I struggle to articulate my thoughts into conversation and when I do, it's often blunt.
I have tried numerous times to speak to a female with whom I have not previously conversed. However, it just raises my social anxiety up. I once out of nervous habit, trying to pluck up the courage, tore apart an entry bracelet and scratched my arm like crazy.
I am trying to overcome these issues, but it's so slow. I have a fair bit, I used to be much worse. I at least know I'm thin now, and I can hold some conversation.
Until I have managed to overcome them, I'll always fail.