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With any luck I'll be fit to move into my new place tomorrow
Waiting on a bed delivery, and cooker/freezer/washing machine.Spent. so. much. money.
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Saw a place to rent online, had a viewing, signed papers, and will have officially moved in, in the space of approximately 2 weeks.
Super organisation skills GO.
Also why I've been somewhat absent lately.
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We found a kitten, about 3/4 weeks ago. Was abandoned at the local castle grounds (which is nowhere near any houses) and it was tiny and starving. Had dug a wee hole in the ground, and seemed to be living in there. We brought it home because we know the wee thing would have died, especially given in the next few days there was really bad, cold, windy weather.
She was an absolute wee darlin. Purred her little head off when you gave her a cuddle. In the pictures she's 4 months old but barely looks 3 cause she's so little.
We couldn't keep her as our other female cat was getting very stressed, but we managed to get her a home through a vets. Heartbreaking that we had to let her go
She was only in our lives for a week, but we all fell in love with her 
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8.5?!
I'm going to go cringe with pain over there *points*
Yeah it really was. Way to lose my virginity as well lol XD
He was a sex maniac, as am I, we had sex pretty much as often as we could... I definitely gave him everything he wanted sexually. I enjoyed his kinks, and accepted that he was different in his lifestyle (crossdressing).
The last time I stayed over with him he told me all the abuse stuff and he couldn't hold my hand or even tolerate sitting beside me. And told me so, as well as admitting that he had no notion for sex or anything.
But then later on he stood up, I was sitting on the sofa, and he told me to stand up and he looked at me VERY intently, almost studying my face. Then he said something along the lines of, "no just forget everything I said, I'm kidding" and he pretty much forced himself on me. And we had the most emotionless sex possible.
The only thing I can think of is... a train wreck like he is thrives on disaster. I was secure, loving, everything he needed, supported him no matter what, and loved him like no one else ever had. Think he simply got bored... maybe? Now he's back with his skank druggie ex girlfriend (with no morals) and he's welcome to her to be honest!
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Danced with a stone bollard and the bollard won
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Goaf love, I said 8.5 inches, not cm
She said 8.5 not .85ahahah you got in there quickly
thats what she said
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Approx £1000 worth of car maintenance....
£262 insurance
£600 damage repairs
~£200 service/premot. (if nothing is falling off/needs replaced lol)
Balls.
(all in one month!!)
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massive massive twatbag who thinks he can do anything cause he has an 8.5 inch dick.
I'm doing great without him!
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I think you may all remember my ex from last year, the abuse victim, etc. Well, towards the end of that relationship his ex had been sniffing around while I was still on the scene. After the breakup we decided to be friends.
Get a message on facebook from him saying that he is now in a relationship with said ex.... After all the bullshit saying he could never love anyone and never have sex, that even the thought of watching porn was a complete turn off. After all I did for that fucker. When I cried my eyes out as he told me he had to be alone and the first thing I said was - "you're going to get back with her, aren't you?" So I told him to go fuck himself and did a block/delete.
Talked to our close mutual friend and told him the WHOLE story. He thought I was a mental jealous ex. (but realised that i'm not after the explanation) Thing is I actually DO NOT want him back, I'm happy with my new boyfriend. I just couldn't get over how he has stabbed me in the back over the whole thing. When he couldn't even hug me, or sit next to me, and hold my hand. Our friend told me that he was having sex with random people every other day almost as soon as we had broke up.
I finally have closure
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LOL squat as in the weightlifting squat with him on my back
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I can squat my boyfriend. Hooooo-Ahhhhhh.
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I've got raynaud's syndrome, so I can't do the ice bukkit challenge, but I did donate to the Raynauds Association and MND.
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My ex's life seems to be taking more of a downturn... I'm worried for him but at the same time I'm kinda glad i'm out of that... Seeing someone who is relatively normal, is a really nice thing. I'm surprised at how much I enjoy the normal things, absent with the ex, even though I thought it never bothered me? Things like holding hands and having NORMAL conversations that don't involve me being a psychologist.... (I really think I missed my calling)
Also since I'm seeing one soag's roomie/best friend, I get to see her, Ivy (daughter) and Luna (kitty!!!!) lots
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Its a decision that only you can make. Either you find a way to get some balance in your life, or continue as you are and accept that you're not likely to ever have a lasting relationship. No one would or should ever have to compromise in that way in a relationship. You can't just fall off the face of the earth for weeks/months at a time and expect the person to still be there waiting for you.
I've been in a situation not dissimilar to what you mean (though for very different reasons) and the distance tore me apart. My illnesses flared up dramatically and I ended up becoming very ill and isolated (i stopped posting on here, deactivated facebook, stopped making any kind of social contact, and I ended up with kidney stones and a huge immune flare up). I would never ever wish that on anyone. No matter how much you love someone, that will ALWAYS be rejection, and it will tear them apart. No one deserves to be treated that way.
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Dating someone new, things are good.
As much as I loved my ex, I don't regret it. We had good times together, but now I just feel normal. Like how its normal to walk around the city hand in hand and spend time with someone who talks to you and not necessarily at you?
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Oh my I've not been here!! Thanks for all the birthday wishes folks
I had a good one -
I agree with all of the above, move on keep messaging. Try not to take it to heart if they don't reply or stop replying. Its far better than them leading you on and letting you think there is a chance, right? Talking to lots of girls (or even guys) is not wrong, you do not have to isolate your social needs into one person... It might help you if you do talk to more than one person and just take it easy. If one doesn't reply someone else will. And don't send more than 1 message without a reply!
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Ahhhhhhhhhhhmygawd >_<
I went to his, he invited me in and had the kettle on before I could really say, like "hey I'm not staying"
I gathered up my stuff. He was talking to me as if we were mates... it felt really uncomfortable. :/
"No point in asking you how you are then?" he said. (my face obviously painted a picture)
"It's my grans funeral tomorrow" - his face dropped..
so after a bit awkward silence, he made tea, came back in. Commented that my face was clearing up (and that I looked lovely), but then I told him that it is spreading everywhere else, and theres a possibility of me having contracted mrsa. By this time he was looking at me like his heart was broken. I could see it in his eyes. So I just looked away because I was gonna cry right there.
After more bloody awkward silence he tells me he has a new job, 22k, and a company car. (so he can sort that kind of shit in his life out and im dumped, but yeah at the same time I'm happy for him)
Talk a bit about the thing, hes told some of his family, 3 people, 2 believed him and one cried and told him to get out. (nice eh)
Then! I said, so what about [the ex], have you been keeping in touch with her? (she was up sniffing round him claiming to just want to be friends) He's like oh yeah tells me a bit about it. Then says, "you know, when she found out (that we split up) she was round here trying her luck, I told her to get to fuck"
MY SIDE OF THE BED IS COLD FOR 5 FUCKING MINUTES YOU BITCH.
He also noticed my lack of internet presence, I deleted facebook and fetlife accounts. I said, well y'know, i don't mean it personally I just had to do it. (cue looking away awkwardly)
Fucking fuck fuck fuck. I didn't cry infront of him but I cried the whole way home. :'(
I don't even know how to feel. Its like asides the relationship/sexual aspect, nothing has changed with us, which is so fucking odd. I just...don't know.
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I'm going to collect my stuff tomorrow. Fuck fuck fuckedy fuck.
Why is this even happening?
I've spent the past few weeks (probably unhealthily) absorbing myself in the world of Terraria to try to forget.
My sister tells me he's been very buddy buddy with the ex (via facebook, ideleted my account) who was sniffing around before we broke up.
Fuck the whole thing. I'm gonna either get really mad or cry my bloody eyes out in front of him tomorrow.
Wish me luck :/
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nerrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrgle
I've been on okc and talking to some seemingly decent people... but my heart is just not in it. Anytime its brought up (someone asking ohh are you still seeing the fella etc) and I tell them I'm not with him anymore, I almost feel the need to correct myself, as if... what am I saying, I'm still with him? I have not had any closure in this whatsoever. Reality and how I feel don't match up. I feel like by talking to people, flirting etc that I am cheating on him. Even though I know I'm not.
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My granny died on Sunday.
I'm still not over the train wreck of a breakup that I had.
Geh.
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I know! Its like.... god must be 6 years old + and it still works (got it electrically tested by my dads mate). And its purdy! I have the blue one!
I went for the cheaper option in the end. I'm not really an uber hardcore extreme gfx kind of game player so I think it'll do the job just fine
I got the bits last night - the cpu comes with a standard heatsink, but with the overclocked bundles you get a big beastie of a heatsink... with an a3 page of instructions...which were totally wrong and i ended up installing the thing myself..... It JUST fits in the case and no more.....
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So I decided that I need some facebook rehab.... Too many reminders of him and his friends... I feel oddly freed? I had kinda been talking to him a bit here n there, nothing major. But a couple of nights ago I was like, y'know I feel like I really need to move on, would you be ok if I start seeing other people and we still be friends... He basically did not give a toot, but at the same time I feel like he hinted that he really didn't want me to? So I started getting frustrated, as you would. I apologised for getting cross, and said i was here if he was having a crisis, but that I did also need space. I think its the best chance of us ever having a friendship again. I feel fucking awful, but it gets easier every day
What Have You Bought?
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So this month has been expensive...
Rent & deposit - £780
Bed £300
Fridge, Microwave - £200
Freezer, cooker, washing machine £800
Car - £800
Curtains - £50
So many things - at least a couple of hundred £...
well over 3 grand spent in a week