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  1. On 14/03/2024 at 11:02 PM, Josh64 said:

    So this spiralled unbelievably out of control. 

    I called the doctors the other day, explained that I have tunnel vision and worsening anxiety, and that I believe it's a mental health issue but don't know for certain so would like to discuss it with a doctor either over the phone or in person. They said there are no appointments left for today, which I said is totally understandable, and it's not something I need right away as I have dealt with it for a long time, if they could just book me in for a few weeks time, or even a few months time, that's fine, but they said that's not possible, and the only way to get an appointment was to call every day at 8am and try to get one on the day. 

    A few days now I have tried that but with no luck, so today I decided to try 111, I thought it's a non-emergency and they might be able to just give me advice over the phone. I explained my symptoms, just saying that my tunnel vision is getting much worse whenever I leave the house, then she started asking questions, a lot of which started to point towards mental health.

    I have had mental health issues and counselling before, and I'm used to being open with my therapists after years of keeping things bottled up, so when asked if I'm suicidal I said "no", but then she asked if I ever had suicidal thoughts, and I said yes, I have suicidal ideation, to which she had a clear tonal shift and said she needs to get in touch with the mental health crisis line and is about to put me on hold, so I stopped her and said "I have suicidal ideation, I have for years, it comes and goes, I know how to cope with it and would never actually do anything, it's intrusive thoughts kind of thing, can flare up when my anxiety is worse", anyway she goes on to put me on hold for 20 minutes, she comes back on the phone and says I need to go to A&E, am I able to get there, and do I think I will harm myself or anyone else on my way there, do I need transport there, and that I need to get there within 4 hours. I again try to explain my situation a bit better, but alas, I go to A&E. 

    I go to A&E and wait for about 3 hours after signing in, and man, if I wasn't sure how to explain my anxiety symptoms, that was the perfect place to put me to make literally all of them flare up to 100% lol, it was super full, screaming adults, screaming kids (obviously no judgement there, just explaining the surroundings) and considering I get anxiety in general public places, somewhere as frantic as that is obviously going to make them worse, and I'm stood basically in the middle of the room as there's nowhere to sit and people leaning on the walls.

    I'm spiralling in my head a bit at this point, worried about whether they think I'm suicidal and they won't let me leave. I google various things (the number 1 thing not to do in panic mode lol) about what would happen if I left A&E before being seen if it's for a mental health issue (as my anxiety was FULL ON at this point and I just wanted to be alone), , to which I see things that say the police might come to the house and take you back, and other things about going to A&E, having a psychiatric assessment and being kept in some ward. I realise I'm spiralling and put my phone on airplane mode and just read the subtitles that are on the TV, which happens to be Dragons Den (that show is on a real decline, man).

    I get called into triage and am finally able to explain the whole situation a lot better. The triage person there said she thinks it's a mental health issue, as if it was a physical sight condition my optician would have picked up on it. It's not something A&E can deal with, but she also can see it's not any immediate danger and I'm clearly just having a worse time than usual, and that I should get in touch with my doctors and "demand to have an appointment booked in for a few weeks time". I then explained what had happened when trying to do that previously and she said that I must insist that I get an appointment and that they will eventually cave. 

    Anyway, they said I'm fine to go home and to book the appointment when I can, so thankfully I only ended up spending 3/4 hours there. I'm home now and just relieved to be sat here on my laptop lol. I will follow their advice and get an appointment booked in, and in the meantime just try to relax for a bit and not inadvertently get myself fucking sectioned or something. It's getting myself into situations like this which is WHY I go so long not asking for help, I feel like I can't explain myself to people properly without me downplaying it and getting totally dismissed or not explaining it well and having it blown out of proportion. 

    I'm just glad I got a taxi there and didn't tell anyone at the time, so I haven't had to cause any drama with friends or family over what ended up being nothing. But yeah, instead of getting help for my mental health from 111 today I basically got given a fucking anxiety endurance test lol. 

    It's better to say something than suffer in silence though, dude. I feel you, mate. If you did want a bit of a chat or something, I'm here. I have Discord now as well and know a bit better on how to work it than I did before, haha.


  2. I have two episodes left...I think...

    Spoiler

    I wanted Zack to go so badly. He was quite annoying in the end. Jumping down people's throats and interrupting them all of the time. Andrew was also equally annoying. Learn to play the game, fool. I literally didn't like Paul at all. I just found him to be smarmy. Harry is the only likeable person who respects the game and plays it well and I hope he wins it all. He plays it for survival and I can respect that because I wouldn't have trusted the others either. At the moment, it's just him and Andrew.

    The Faithfuls are so easily swayed that it's scary.

    Also, am I the only one who thought it was obvious that Diane and Ross were related? They literally look like each other. First thing I said when they spoke was that they could be related 🤣

     


  3. 8 hours ago, drahkon said:

     If I do, it'll be the first time I'll go to the cinema by myself.

    I nearly always go by myself and I love it. It's literally a bit of me-time. If I go with someone, they have to be like-minded and there's only two people who are the same as me. I hate being interrupted during a movie with stupid shit. Reactions are cool but I hate running commentaries where someone tells you what just happened 3 seconds after you've just seen it on screen.

     

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  4. 6 minutes ago, EEVILMURRAY said:

    The 2nd US season? Because the first one sucked balls.

    The 2nd Australian season isn't too bad, about 5 episodes in. The team dynamic is interesting.

    I didn't mind the US one. At least there was a bit of personality there. The first Australian one was great. The traitors in that season were awesome. Our one feels rather vanilla compared. They're starting to liven up a little though but honestly, it's blatantly obvious who the traitors would be apart from Harry and the vet. Paul is non-stop smirking and smarmy. Not a big fan. 

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  5. So I'm late to the party and I haven't read a thing as I've only started watching it. The US one has kind of taken over for me and the new Australian one is a bit meh. I'm hoping our one gets better because they're bland and too friendly at the moment and it's very petty. Like "I think you're a traitor because you breathe oxygen and that's a red flag"...come on! Although it needs to be said that the editing in the show is a bit weird. Like I'm on episode 3 and someone is getting voted off and before they reveal who they are, they end the episode on the cliffhanger...why? We know their alliances, we know they're getting booted off...what's the cliffhanger for? :laughing:

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  6. I have seen the worst movie of 2023 in my opinion: Sumotherhood.

    It just wasn't funny and it felt rather dated. Every character was annoying and loud for the sake of cheap laughs that didn't hit most of the time. A couple of scenes were pretty funny but then became too long and instantly became bland. 

    I think this might've been funny in the early or later 2000s but in 2023, I don't think it works...

     

     


  7. 6 hours ago, Ashley said:

    Looking at a random Pot Noodle it in itself is not terrible but obviously could be better, and probably not great to have every day and it will depend what else you're eating and doing in the day.

    Obviously the one you're eating may be slightly different but there's 10g of saturated fats in that and men are recommended 30g per day. Also quite a bit of salt but honestly try finding pre-packaged food that ain't.

    If you want food that is satiating try and go for some complex carbs (wholegrain breads, rice, pasta, noodles etc) and unsaturated fats (avocado, olive oils, peanuts, brazil nuts, almonds - although with nuts bear in mind a few is all you need). Complex carbs burn slower so keep you full longer, but don't have the instant hit (and crash) of uncomplex carbs like sugars. Fats are more satiating and unsaturated fats are better for you for that reason.

    If you can meal prep why not try knocking up some chicken burritos, freezing them and either defrosting the night before or lightly grilling every day? Or salads (yes yes, you don't win friends) with some cold meat and topped with some chopped almonds and olive oil. Or pep buddha bowls as they offer great versatility. If you google there's many examples but a Mexican-style one could be black beans, sweetcorn, quinoa, bell peppers, cherry tomatoes, meat of choice and some avocado. You can prep all that (save the avocado) in advance. 

    Appreciate you mentioned it has to be cheap but often if you meal prep it can work out cheaper in the long run as a Pot Noodle is what, 80p-£1.20 depending on size/brand?

    So the one I have is "ramen noodles". I put it in boiling water and then microwave for 5 minutes, basically. It's like Pot Noodle but honestly has a different texture and tastes better. I just wasn't sure if it was wise to have it for lunch every day. I've just been fed up with soups and salads and wanted something different. I did have some frozen meals but thought I'd try something different. I picked them up and they've kept me full.

    I'll have a look at maybe looking into making salads more interesting. It's getting colder though so preferably something warm would be better. 


  8. So I've been asked to be something I'd never dream I'd ever be asked but here we are. I've been asked to be a Godfather. I'm off to change my name to Don Corleone now 😂

    Seriously though, like I don't know how this works because I'm not religious and they're aware of this but they said I'd be perfect and they really want me to do it. I also don't know what it is I need to do. Like, I've been to a Christening once and it was about 2 hours of talking and then they just stood up and was like "I do" when asked...is that all there is? Do I need to sign or fill anything in? Do I have to be religious?

     

    Like, it's so nice being asked and I'd love to do it...

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  9. Spoiler

    I swear Nezuko best be alive because I will SLAP your tits off if she buuuurns!!

     I'm not even kidding. Me during that final episode of Demon Slayer! I was on an emotional rollercoaster with it. Death Note is still the greatest anime show I've seen so far but Demon Slayer was amazing.

    I decided on watching Psycho Pass now. I'm on episode 5 and I am HOOKED! I'm on the whole chatroom episodes and it's got me on the edge of my seat! The new movie is in cinemas in August so I hope I can watch them all by then!

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  10. On 14/07/2023 at 8:46 AM, EEVILMURRAY said:

    It kinda is. I'm about 4-5 episodes in, and the challenges are completely different to the UK and it's piss poor clone US remix. So a huge improvement and worth watching. This time they compete for "bars of SoLiD sIlVeR", and for some reason the producers appear to be of the mindset that legal minds are best. About a third of them have law related jobs... Does it have any benefit? Watch and find out. 

    @darksnowman get in on the action, @killthenet and @WackerJr. You too

     

    Going to your previous point about the US one...

    I don't know about the second season, but winner deserved of first? Hell naw.

    Nah, she played that cool. She knew the game inside out. I respected that. Heck, I even remember who it even was and I forgot the other winner in the Australian one (I watched it but forgot to post about it here. I'll wait until you've all finished)


  11. 3 hours ago, Ashley said:

    Given Meta's love of harvesting data (I have an Instagram account so I know it's no different, but don't feel the need to go deeper), the fact your timeline is a mess of people you don't follow and not in chronological order and the fact if you remove your account you remove your Instagram account too I'm just not going to bother. I feel like I need less social media, not more. 

    I've tried to do this as someone told me about this but I was able to deactivate Threads and still keep IG


  12. On 25/05/2023 at 8:54 PM, Ashley said:

    If you're that curious about if you can touch your toes rest your hands on your thighs and slide them down your legs (as you bend forward obviously) until you reach a pain point. It's a bit more controlled. But I'd still say when it comes to your back its best to be over cautious because if you fuck that up you really fuck it up. Maybe even give yourself a week away from the gym.

    The good news is that most of the soreness is gone. It's when I bend back that I feel it now. I touched my toes sitting down and had no pain. Stood and did it and no pain. Twisted both ways and got nothing. I just feel a soreness bending back so it's not 100% yet. I'm hoping it'll be fine after a couple of days. 


  13. On 24/05/2023 at 12:25 PM, MindFreak said:

    Deadlift really hits the lower back when done correctly so it makes sense that you feel it there. If it really is DOMS, then you probably just overdid it - a rule of thumb is that if you have DOMS for more than 3 days, it was too much for your current state. 

    Anyways, heat, massage, and light exercise without weights to loosen it up should help, along with some gentle stretching. 

    It's been over 3 days now. It feels better than it did though. I still feel it but it's definitely improving. I woke up this morning and didn't feel it so much. I've done what you've said and it helped. I've done walking and put a hot water bottle on it and that helped. I hate massages though (I know, I'm weird). I was told by a couple of people who are a pharmacist and a nurse to "stagger" paracetamol with ibuprofen so I might try that. 

    On 24/05/2023 at 10:56 AM, Ashley said:

    You can't really "quickly" recover from something, you can just mitigate making it worse and doing things to help ease the pain. I'm by no means an expert so look into it but my first instinct would be heat (bath, sauna etc) and light stretching, preferably when your body is warm so it's looser. Obviously don't try and touch your toes, but just some light movement in all directions to get your lower back moving. Maybe even an osteopath if you're concerned. 

    It's weird because I've been told the same thing about touching toes but I have the urge to to see if it's gone 😂 the stretching has helped so much appreciated for that advice. 


  14. 45 minutes ago, EEVILMURRAY said:

    A bath with some Radox?

    Radox weirdly doesn't work with me. I've tried different ones before and it doesn't touch me. I've been putting in ibuprofen gel and was told to do some stretches too. I've just woke up now and it's like a stiffness. I remember having this before but I completely forgot about it. It's supposed to take a couple of weeks to get over but I'm like 😒 because I'm already over it! 😅


  15. I did rather heavy deadlifts and a 3 hour bike ride on Sunday. On Sunday, I was okay but from Monday, my lower back was aching. Like a DOMS-sort of ache. It's okay walking and stuff but if I pick something up from the ground or slouch or something, I feel it (if it makes sense). It's worse when I wake up because I sleep in the same position for hours. I haven't felt that in ages. You guys have any advice on how to recover quick from it? I'm going to take a couple of days away from working out.


  16. I have saved all of these! Cowboy Bebop, Psycho Pass and Full Metal Alchemist are something I hear people talk about. Ace Attorney was something I found too. How Heavy Are Your Dumbbells looks fun too. I'm not sure what to watch next after Demon Slayer...reminding me of...

    Mugen Train was amazing but I wasn't prepared for the last episode!!! 😔

    The Dragon Ball thing is so confusing. Everyone has a different way to start watching and it's so confusing yet people find it confusing following Kingdom Hearts?! 🤣

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  17. I am new to anime really. I've watched Death Note, Deadman Wonderland, the first season of Attack on Titan and Studio Ghibli movies, if you count them. I've just got Crunchyroll Premium purely because of Demon Slayer, which I am in love with right now. I'm halfway through Mugen Train era and it is amazing!

     

    Can you guys recommend any more I should watch? I like horror stuff mainly. I don't like transformers-type shows with robots flying around in space (I saw an episode of one and lost interest). I've saved Gantz, My Hero Academia, Mashle, One Punch Man and Chainsaw Man. I wanna get into Bleach and One Piece but find that they have hundreds of episodes pretty daunting! Dragon Ball is another I'd like to try but my God, there's so many series and spin-offs that I don't know where to even begin! 🤣

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  18. On 26/02/2023 at 12:11 PM, EEVILMURRAY said:

    Can you just go around avarda'ing people? And leaving no witnesses 

    I've completed the main story, the side quests and got most of the collectables (I need 13 conjurations and 2 wand handles...I know this means nothing to you but it would to other people who have played this game) and unfortunately, you can't go round using the killing curse on anybody. I think the videos I've been watching are mods on the PC version of the game. I'm hopeful that they will bring out DLC for this as this has truly been one of the best games I have ever played and it's a crying shame that I've nearly completed it.

    I only have 5 trophies left to get and they're relatively easy. It's been absolutely unreal and it's been the first time in ages where I've been obsessed with a game and mindful of the time I've spent on it. I've let myself play it for about an hour or so a time and managed to clock up over 50 hours. I've very rarely used any guides (apart from the remaining collection chests as some of them have been a real bitch) and overall, it's been enjoyable. I've had people come up to me that have completed it in 30 hours and I just can't see how because there is just so much to do and explore and find that it would take a lot longer.

     

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  19. I watched Scream 6 over the weekend. Very easily my second favourite Scream movie. I was surprised at how great it was. It wasn't just gore and kills (although they were brutal) but the character development and story was actually quite strong too. I'd love to see this in 4DX. 


  20. 3 hours ago, BowserBasher said:

    Yes she was. And I think that is why I've seen people say they wish she was in this. 

    Me included. Don't get me wrong, Melissa McCarthy has now got me a bit excited but Queen Latifah would've absolutely been amazing.

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