Thanks for the reply. I'm in the n-e steam group if you can see me there?
Yeah I have people I can talk to, but I'm not that comfortable talking to someone face to face, I never have been about anything really, just how I am I guess.
I think being in hospital forces me to think about it, and with the lack of distractions, I can't help it. I think I'm going home tomorrow, so that might be better.
I've felt like I've handled it really well up until the last few weeks, I don't know what has changed that has changed how I'm thinking.