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  1. Taking a Break

    Hey N-E, This is something I've been going back and forth in my head over for a few months now, and while I'll get into it more below, the short and long of it is that I'm going to be taking a break from posting on and visiting the forums for a while due to my mental health. I'm not sure if it'll be a month, or two, or six, or longer. This didn't really feel like it belonged in the good, or bad, or neutral stuff threads, and the main reason I wanted to say something about taking a break is because I feel like I post regularly enough that just stopping out of the blue might be cause for concern, and I didn't want anyone worrying for my wellbeing, just based on some comments I've made in the past on here about my mental health not exactly being up to snuff. The reason that I've decided to take that step now is because I've been off work for the last month - one week of that as planned annual leave, though I spent the entirety of that week stuck in bed - initially due to episodes of vertigo, extreme levels of fatigue, and a few other symptoms. I do a lot of self-reflection and introspection, but looking back at the last few months as I've been able to with no distractions due to being cooped up in bed the last few weeks, I've realised that, deep down, I'm quite plainly not happy - I normally get down while I'm sick due to the sheer fact that I am sick, and it annoys me because I'm at a stage where I hate being sick with a passion, just because of what I've gone through over the last few years with being sick pretty incessantly. There's been a lot of middle-of-the-night outbursts of crying while I just stare out of the window, or sit up on my bed in a dark room. In hindsight, for the last six months or so I think I've had every tell-tale sign of stress, or burnout, or however you want to label it, ranging from a burning scalp and shedding way more hair than usual (no family history of balding) to an eczema breakout basically looking like it has aged the skin on one of my fingers by some 50 years, to eating unhealthily and binge-eating to not eating at all and putting on a load of weight in a pretty small period of time (overweight for the first time in my life and a bunch of stretch marks can attest to the fact that my body wasn't built for this weight, though I can make peace with stretch marks as I still have a bunch from when I started working out in high school), to nearly collapsing a few times due to sheer exhaustion, to brain fog, to struggling to sleep and struggling to wake up, and so on. I think I've got out less this year than I did in 2020. On top of all this, my work life simply sucks these days - and that's all I'll say about that part of my life I think. And financially, while coping, out two-person apartment energy bills have gone from £60 to nearly £300 per month and apparently I'm £1000 in debt (yeah...I'm not going to be taking that lying down) due to some botched job at my energy provider. I have blood tests tomorrow and an eye test on Sunday to confirm that everything is as it should be, but reflecting on the last 5 or 6 years of my life and all of my previous illnesses, I think while maybe I could turn up deficient somewhere (because of eating inconsistently/binge-eating), I'm not remotely scared that it's something more serious, in terms of being a life-threatening X or Y (mental health is, of course, very serious). I'd kind of love for it to be, just because then I'd have answers, but I don't think that will be the case. I think it's most likely going to be mental. Yesterday I placed a phone call that I've been putting off the last couple of years, which was to get the ball rolling on therapy. It was long overdue. And it was kind of heartbreaking, even just for an initial assessment, to explain some of the stuff I went through as a kid, whether it was with my family, or a particular friend in high school, or a bunch of other events, to a complete stranger over the phone. It got even more heartbreaking when, even after all of my introspection and reflection, a bunch of questions basically asking how often I find myself feeling down turned into "yeah, that's how I feel pretty much all the time...and I have done for years. I can't remember the last time I didn't feel like that." Again, to reiterate: I don't self-harm, I won't start to; I haven't planned to do anything stupid and will continue not to, because, well, one of the things I'm still dealing with all of these years later (and will be discussing in therapy) is that I naively took on the task of trying to keep a friend from committing suicide in high school, something which started when I was 12 and continued up until I broke off from her at 17. Purposely or not, she shaped who I am today - I'm not a hopeless romantic as my life had been heading towards before I met her (that wouldn't have ended well for me so, hey, huge silver lining), and I've learned as much from that one (non-romantic) relationship with her as I feel I wouldn't have learned in a lifetime of relationships due to how she treated me, but above all else, it's given me a deep resolve that I could never seriously consider suicide as an option. I could never even remotely consider putting someone through what I went through at that age. I'm not looking forward to tackling all of that with someone, to be honest - but I know I need to. I was referred to see a clinical psychologist, and today I've started reaching out to some of their recommended practitioners in my local area. I'm scared, to be honest, but I feel like I'm already on my way to getting to the root of my issues from years of reflection on a lot of these events and my thoughts on them - but I need direction to dig deeper, ask harder questions, and learn how to manage things from here. I think it's going to be a struggle, but I've got to try to wrestle back some level of control over my life. Which brings me onto taking a break from N-E: to be honest, I've struggled more and more as the year has gone on to post here, and when I have, looking back, I think it's mostly come from a place of trying to distract myself from everything that's been going on around me; same goes for how I've been treating games and other forms of escapism. I don't think I've even posted in this year's Gaming Diary thread, which is crazy, because it's a thread I normally love to write longer pieces for. The last couple of months I've been trying my best to step back and not rush to post something first - a habit I have definitely found myself getting into; this obviously isn't a fault of N-E's, but rather just shows what my relationship with this place has become, and it doesn't feel healthy to me deep down when I scramble to put up a thread. For the same reason, I'm even trying to delay gratification wherever I can elsewhere - even though I'm signed off from work I still haven't watched Andor, and probably won't until the weekend. It's going to be a bunch of small steps. While I'm definitely going to miss talking about games and everything else I talk about on here with you all, I think the best step for me right now is to focus as much as I can on my own path, and just putting one foot in front of the other until it becomes normal again. I have weight to lose, my mental health to improve, and just generally need to find a way to at least be more content, if not a bit happier, with my life. And I simply have no idea how long that's going to take. So, until next time, whenever that is, N-E - it's been a pleasure, and take care of yourselves while I'm gone!
  2. The wait for Monolith Soft's next game is finally over. Guess I need to hurry up and get around to playing 2, huh?
  3. Well, it's got a release date now, so figured it might as well get its own thread!
  4. Splatoon 3

    Once more unto the ink, dear friends, once more.
  5. The Star Wars Thread

    Hello there! I wanted to open a thread to talk all things Star Wars, considering the slew of films, animated shows, books and comics already around, as well as the upcoming Star Wars Land and other media entries on their way. May the Force be with you all.
  6. Grand Theft Auto VI

    We've finally got the first official confirmation of the next Grand Theft Auto being in active development. From the Rockstar Newswire: And thus continues the growing trend of announcing games in blogs to drive staff hiring.
  7. The Best Gaming Music Ever.

    Was watching Dunkey's Nintendo Direct vs Sony Direct video, got to Bayonetta 3, and he played Riders of the Light... ...and now I need to play Bayonetta. I already knew SEGA's Sound Team generally went hard, but damn, that's one hell of a track!
  8. In a shocking turn of events that no-one could have predicted, RADWIMPS will be in charge of the soundtrack for Makoto Shinkai's next film, Suzuke no Tojimari. In other news, water is wet
  9. Grand Theft Auto VI

    Just imagine
  10. The trend of job listing announcements and underwhelming blog entries for huge projects continues. From EA's news section: Such an interesting time for the industry when it's a constant toss of the (three-sided?) coin on whether a game is announced closer to launch, gets a CGI trailer years out, or is shuffled onto a blog down some back alley. I'm definitely surprised in this case, just considering the property involved, and maybe even more so considering D23 was just a couple of weeks ago! See you in 2025 or 2026
  11. As is tradition: GameXplain's mega-analysis for Tears of the Kingdom comes in at nearly 50 minutes long! Takes me back to the simpler times of watching their old BOTW (Zelda for NX!) trailer and gameplay breakdowns Short answer: no Longer answer:
  12. Not related to the eShop, but related to the winding down of services for both consoles: Image Share will be discontinued as of 25th October 2022.
  13. Welcome to your one-stop shop for all things related to the May/June 2022 (and beyond) PlayStation Plus overhaul! I figured with a vast and updating catalog of games to track, multiple subscription tiers, and a glut of new info, a dedicated thread could be helpful. See the end of this post for a selection of games planned to be included in the launch catalogs for this overhauled PlayStation Plus. Regional rollout schedule: Asia (excluding Japan) - 24th May 2022 Japan - 2nd June 2022 Americas - 13th June Europe, Australia, New Zealand - 23rd June 2022 Subscription tiers and pricing structure: PlayStation Plus Essential will continue to provide the same benefits that PlayStation Plus members get today: two monthly downloadable games, exclusive discounts, cloud storage for saved games, and online multiplayer access. There will be no changes for existing PlayStation Plus members at this tier. The pricing structure for Essential is as follows: United States - $9.99 monthly / $24.99 quarterly / $59.99 yearly Europe - €8.99 monthly / €24.99 quarterly / €59.99 yearly United Kingdom - £6.99 monthly / £19.99 quarterly / £49.99 yearly Japan - ¥850 monthly / ¥2,150 quarterly / ¥5,143 yearly PlayStation Plus Extra will provide all of the benefits from the Essential tier, as well as a catalog of 400+ PS4 and PS5 titles, including first-party titles from PlayStation Studios and third-party partners. Games in this tier will be downloadable to play. Also announced today by Ubisoft is that a new Ubisoft+ subscription service called Ubisoft+ Classics will launch with 27 titles as part of PlayStation Plus from its overhaul starting at this tier, expanding to 50 titles by the end of 2022. The pricing structure for Extra is as follows: United States - $14.99 monthly / $39.99 quarterly / $99.99 yearly Europe - €13.99 monthly / €39.99 quarterly / €99.99 yearly United Kingdom - £10.99 monthly / £31.99 quarterly / £83.99 yearly Japan - ¥1,300 monthly / ¥3,600 quarterly / ¥8,600 yearly PlayStation Plus Premium* will provide all of the benefits from the Essential and Extra tiers, as well as an additional 340+ games, split between PS3 titles available via cloud streaming and a catalog of classics - available to stream or to download - from the PS1, PS2 and PSP console libraries. It also includes time-limited game trials for select titles. The pricing structure for Premium is as follows: United States - $17.99 monthly / $49.99 quarterly / $119.99 yearly Europe - €16.99 monthly / €49.99 quarterly / €119.99 yearly United Kingdom - £13.49 monthly / £39.99 quarterly / £99.99 yearly Japan - ¥1,550 – monthly / ¥4,300 – quarterly / ¥10,250 yearly *PlayStation Plus Deluxe will be the highest tier available for markets without cloud streaming. It will be offered at a lower price compared to Premium (local pricing will vary by market), and is essentially Premium without the ability to stream PS3 titles: it will have all of the benefits of the Essential and Extra tiers, and include the catalog of PS1, PS2 and PSP titles, as well as time-limited game trials. Other important details: The games available in the PlayStation Plus games catalog will be refreshed on a regular basis: For those at the Essential tier (and at higher tiers), a monthly refresh will occur on the first Tuesday of the month, with new PS5 and PS5 games added to the service - the same as what PlayStation Plus members get today. For those at the Premium/Deluxe and Extra tiers, an additional monthly refresh will occur in the middle of each month. The number of games refreshed will vary per month. Players who have previously purchased digital versions of select games from the PS1 and PSP libraries (i.e. on PS3, PSP, or Vita) will not have to make a separate purchase or sign up to PlayStation Plus to play these titles on PS4 or PS5. When these titles are released for PS4 and PS5, players can head to the PlayStation Store and download a version for the consoles at no extra cost if they already own the digital version of the title. In addition, some of these titles will also be available for individual purchase. For select PS1 and PSP titles, a new user interface has been integrated, with menus which will allow you to save your game at any time, or even rewind the game if you want a do-over. For the time-limited game trials included in the Premium tier, you can play most of the included titles for two hours - the playtime counter will only count while you are in the game. Any trophies and game save date from the trial will carry forward if you choose to purchase the game. Game catalogs at launch: Included in the below spoiler tag are a selection of PS4 and PS5 titles which will be available at launch to players at the Extra and Premium/Deluxe tiers. Note: titles with an asterisk * are to be included as part of Ubisoft+ Classics, another benefit announced today for players at the Extra and Premium/Deluxe tiers. Included in the below spoiler tag are a selection of PS1, PS2 and PSP titles included in the catalog of classic games available at launch for those at the Premium/Deluxe tier, as well as the catalog of remasters which have been grouped with these titles. Included in the below spoiler tag is a catalog of some of the PS3 games available via streaming at launch to those at the Premium tier. Included in the below spoiler tag is the catalog of time-limited game trials available at launch to those at the Premium tier. Included in the below spoiler tag is the catalog of Ubisoft+ Classics which will be available at launch for those at the Extra and Premium/Deluxe tiers. Note: I've copied this list directly from Ubisoft's press release, so there will likely be some overlap with previous lists. Sources: UPDATE: All-new PlayStation Plus launches in June with 700+ games and more value than ever (PS Blog - 29th March 2022), All-new PlayStation Plus game lineup: Assassin’s Creed Valhalla, Demon’s Souls, Ghost of Tsushima Director’s Cut, NBA 2K22, and more join the service (PS Blog - 16th May 2022), Ubisoft+ Coming to PlayStation (Ubisoft News - 16th May 2022).
  14. Playstation 5 Console Discussion

    Yeah, I think you're right about that. Also, with the detachable disc drive either being bundled in or sold separately, I think that in light of the recent pricing changes for both the Digital and Disc Editions of the PS5 as a result of the current economic climate, this is a great opportunity to give people the push to buy the console at a Digital Edition price of £389.99 rather than the Disc Edition at £479.99, and then at some time down the road, leave it up to them to pick up the detachable disc drive. And if they never pick up the detachable disc drive? Well then, PlayStation get the even greater benefit of more digital sales! Got to imagine Xbox are considering it for the Series S, I swear there were rumours dating back to the all-digital Xbox One S that they were planning on something like this.
  15. Playstation 5 Console Discussion

    According to Tom Henderson, the PS5 is set to get a new model next year...with a detachable disc drive. This model is reportedly set to replace the current models.
  16. Grand Theft Auto VI

    Yeah, apparently the guy leaking everything attempted to blackmail Rockstar...which seemingly didn't go as planned. Looks like Rockstar are trying to file takedowns on YouTube, but once it's out there, well...it's out there Apparently he's also threatening to leak the source code for GTA V and GTA VI, too. So, unfortunately, it looks like it could still get worse for Rockstar if there's any truth to what he's saying
  17. Grand Theft Auto VI

    So, maybe one of the biggest leaks in the history of the industry went down earlier today. Bunch of clips posted of a very early, in-development GTA VI, with code and low poly models all over the shop, but might give an idea of some of the ideas they're trying to implement (such as more ways to interact with NPC's). And it's been confirmed to be real by Jason Schreier: Honestly...this sucks. The announcement was very lackluster (but hey, that's seemingly the industry standard these days, that or a CGI trailer), but Rockstar seemed to be heading in the right direction in terms of representation, treatment of staff, trying to avoid crunch and some of their previous pitfalls, etc. And then a dev build, which is super rough and likely includes some prototype ideas, leaks like this.
  18. Here we go! Announced at the PS5 September Showcase, being developed by Creative Business Unit III!
  19. Final Fantasy XVI (Summer 2023)

    Somewhat surprisingly considering their plans to show the game at last year's TGS, this game skipped it this year, at least in terms of showing up in a big way. Still, we got a couple of tidbits, like this wonderful promo art, reaffirming that Summer 2023 release window: Yoshi-P also turned up at the TGS Japan Game Awards and revealed that he expects the next trailer for the game to come out around next month, and that in the next info drop after that, they plan to share the game's release date.
  20. A Collector's Edition was also announced for Switch, PS4, and PS5: Seems to only be available at the moment from the Square Enix Store, priced at £169.99. Looks good, but it was always to struggle to live up to the first game's pop-up:
  21. It's either that or the Ignore list
  22. Zeltik's videos are great, great share! Can I just say though, it's killing me that so many people are saying the weirdly faced shaman-type dude on the wall is reminiscent of the Lord of the Mountain, when said weirdly faced shaman-type dude on the wall's face is, I feel, still clearly taking some cues from the design of the Spirit of the Forest from Princess Mononoke, even more so than the Lord of the Mountain (which, well, also was clearly taking cues from it!). A lot of deer-like features going on with that face (or mask?)... Shaman dude Lord of the Mountain Spirit of the Forest (Princess Mononoke) The wide eyes, the "ears", the general face shape and it's nose/brow ridge...yeah, I can't unsee it. To push it further, though, on the Shaman Dude™...is that hair, cloth, or...tendrils? Because you know... This builds into my next bit of speculation a bit... I think this game's title can be seen as a mirror to Breath of the Wild, and together they are talking about the cycle of life and death, but also the cycle of man and nature. I mean, think about it. In almost any way you cut it, you can see a relationship between a Breath and Tears, whether it be a similarity or difference, but there's so much joining them. Both are ways of expelling waste/toxins from the body, and with that in mind both I think could be defined as being a cyclical process of renewal (breathing in and out to continue the process of, well, living, compared with shedding tears to shed or process emotions). Similarly, breathing is, 99% of the time (until I say this and you're conscious of it for a moment ), an involuntary action, whereas, while emotions can overcome you and make you cry tears, it is something we have much more control over. I think also from a meditation perspective, there's something to be said for focusing on breathing and observing your emotions, whereas crying/tears often imply emotion and being overwhelmed by them. And so on and so forth. It's loose, and it's a bit silly, but I guess the most succinct argument I have for it it that Breath is associated with life and being present, whereas I would argue that Tears (crying, obviously there'll be exceptions! I had a botched eye op as a kid so I cry from one eye when it's cold!) are kind of associated with the struggles of life, including death, such as through mourning those we've lost, emotion, and altogether, honestly, not being truly present. There's also the relationship between mankind and nature, which is what Wild and Kingdom kind of get at. One flourishing, more often than not, comes at the cost of the other, which is especially true and noteworthy today in 2022, what with climate change and more and more natural disasters occuring. I think there's also just an implied mirroring between an untamed Wild and a tamed, well, Kingdom. Anyways, that's what I'm taking from the titles: it's about the relationships between life and death, and nature and mankind. Breath of the Wild Tears of the Kingdom Goes along with the Zonai ouroborus too! EDIT: another one; BotW, while fully 3D, was arguably us mainly exploring a horizontal plane, across the land of Hyrule. Breaths are, well, inhaled and exhaled, typically, perpendicular to the position of the body, but horizontally when upright. Tears flow down vertically, and we're seeing a lot more to the verticality of this world in TotK (places to explore on the sky and underground). It's definitely growing on me, that's for sure! I think there's also more there, though. If this kingdom in the sky was indeed an ancient kingdom and is the kingdom the title alludes to, the "wild" could also be referring to the untamed force of nature that is/was Calamity Ganon, and the "Kingdom" could be referring to his opposite – this shaman-type on the murals. I also can't help but wonder if there's some balance there between good and evil, and so there's that cycle which could come into effect: with Calamity Ganon gone as if the end of Breath of the Wild, does his opposite (this shaman-type guy?) step into the fold? I kind of think of it like the balance of the Force in Star Wars, and how there's a relationship between the Dark Side and the Light. I'm really curious to see where this game goes, regardless. There's a bunch in Princess Mononoke which has clearly inspired the series in the past, or Breath of the Wild in 2017 (hell, that true ending is basically the same ending as Princess Mononoke's!), and so I imagine we'll see more tiny nods here and there which might help gain a better understanding of what's going on ahead of release. Can't help but also talk about an ancient kingdom in the sky and that massive twister without thinking of Laputa...but I'll stop there for now Thanks for fixing the thread titl–
  23. Well, we've got threads for the NES and SNES Online apps, so here's one for the upcoming Expansion Pack, which will include N64 and SEGA Mega Drive games, as announced in the September 2021 Nintendo Direct. The Expansion Pack will be launching in late October 2021. Software Nintendo 64 Launch line-up: Select titles, such as Mario Kart 64, will also include support for local and online multiplayer for up to four players. Future titles: SEGA Mega Drive Launch line-up: Hardware Wireless N64 and SEGA Mega Drive controllers will be made available to Nintendo Switch Online members. These will each be priced at £39.99 / €49.99. Other details We have also had confirmation that all N64 games included in the service can be played in their 60Hz versions in Europe too. The original European PAL versions will be available on select titles too, but this seemed to be one of the concerns I'd seen floated around about the service, so it's nice to get an update!